The Difference

It started the year I turned 35.

35 was the year that I could see things changing in my body and in my life.

Twenty years later I’m 55 and the difference is obvious again too.

This is the year I’m aware that I’m getting older. The fact that my life is getting shorter has impacted what I think.

The point is: “Do I want to continue to harbor the same insecurities hang-ups and guilt trips?”

If you ask me 55 is the year to get real with yourself. You could live another 20 years.

Far better to start now to change the things that you feel are holding you back.

For instance: women viewing ourselves with a self-critical eye that harshly assesses every perceived flaw we think we have.

Should you not be a woman who ever questions herself this way I’d like to talk to you to uncover your secret for always-on confidence.

I have started to talk to a therapist. My goal is still to meet a man and have a boyfriend. I will explore this angle starting in January in the new year.

In here I would like to post the famous Marianne Williamson quote.

Williamson gets it right:

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.”

Self-esteem is a high beam. When you feel good you can do good for yourself and others.

Shine on.


Author: Chris Bruni

Christina Bruni is the author of the critically acclaimed memoir Left of the Dial. She contributed a chapter "Recovery is Within Reach" to Benessere Psicologico: Contemporary Thought on Italian American Mental Health. As well as an author and activist, Bruni is an artist and athlete.

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